I get into my head real bad.
My mood completely changes.
I, as a person change.
I say who I truly am, but,
when I overthink and stress,
I’m not who I say I am.
No one seems to really understand that.
I can’t help it.
Even when I try to fight it, it only seems to make it worse.
I shut down.
I build walls all around me to try and block everyone out.
It’s hard though.
When someone is around, and you have to try to pretend like you’re okay, when in all honesty, you’re stressed, overthinking, and just want to curl up in a ball and cry.
I try so hard to hide it and keep to myself.
But, damn..when I do it, I end up flipping or getting emotional.
I let everything build up and or get to me that it changes me.
I’m not me.
This is unfinished. I’ve been so tired and busy lately that I just haven’t had the time to focus on writing. Soon though I’ll get back at it. ❤️