Merry Christmas

Vincent getting into his presents.
Opening presents at gmas
He’s obsessed with toy story
He is one happy Vinnie. ❤️
Over at the boyfriends house, well it’s our friend Sarah’s, but he currently lives there.
Blayde!
Dj!
Just chillin’
Ella my little sister
The boyfriend ❤️
My dad is rude.
Aunt Rhonda

❤️💜

Admire

You ever just stare?

Stare at the one you love and question, “why the hell does he love me?”

You stare and just admire all the little things he does.

The way he smiles, his deep laugh he lets out during funny parts of movies, or when you see him kind of glance over for the slightest second…

Your heart melts.

It pounds so fast because all you can do is admire him.

You think about your future together.

You think to yourself about how you can’t wait til he asks you to be his wife.

Or how much in a rush you are to have a kid already.

Because it all feels so right.

You feel all of this with just a simple look at him.

It’s perfect.

You ever just catch yourself staring and thinking how fucking lucky you are to have him in your life?

That he’s all yours, and you want him to be yours, always, and forever..

When you stare over at him and he’s doing his usual goofy dance,

And you can’t help but giggle at how silly he is.

When we’re doing our own thing together and I look and stare at you,

And there you are, playing your video game.

God, the excitement I get when I just fucking stare at you…

As I write this blog this instant.

Honestly, I’m not great at explaining my feelings, I’m so repetitive it’s insane. It’s like I try to explain how I feel, but every time it’s the same repetitive shit I always say. And there’s just no other way of saying how I feel out in some sort of different form. Like if I could legit say how much I love this man I would. Hell, I can’t even tell him how much because, well, every time I do try, I end up saying the same damn thing. It’s like, I can think it, but I can’t explain it. If that makes any sense.?

I’m very new to this whole, being “in love” thing. I never have been, and the moment I met him I knew he was the ONE for me. I don’t even know how to explain that. I just knew it, felt it.

I’m honestly not sure what else to say. Even when I have been drinking writing is still tough. Haha.

Thanks for reading guys. ❤️

2 months

2 months already.

Where do I start?

You’ve amazed me.

You have literally made this cold soul alive again.

I’ve never been truly happy.

Until you came into my life.

Well, other than my son of course.

You’ve showed me how to live again.

I had given up. I was done.

I wanted to be alone.

You changed that.

Now, I wake up everyday, happy, knowing that I have you in my life.

I know you’re my other half, my soulmate.

Ha, I know I’ve told you that repeatedly.

But it’s true.

I feel complete with you in my life.

I’m sure me always repeating myself gets annoying or old.

Maybe, I’m just that happy or excited that I feel the need to always be repetitive?.

I know I can be a handful sometimes, hell maybe it’s all the time.

You’re still there by my side.

I promise, I’ll never leave your side, I will always work with you through the tough times, I will always try my best to keep you happy, even though you tell me I don’t have to try. (Haha.) You’re the one. Forever & Always. ❤️

Thanks you guys for reading my sappy/cheesy blog. 🙂

Ryan, I love you so much, always. I pinky promise, to always be by your side. ❤️

German Day

Good morning! Here are some pictures and videos from German Day yesterday! Sorry I haven’t been writing. I still just have no honest clue what to write about. Hopefully, at some point I’ll get back into it!

Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy! ❤️

Vincent loves my sunglasses.
For some reason he loves the flash on my camera.
Midway laughing.
This is Dj our friends son, he was cold.
Ryan my love, and his son Blayde creeping.

Life Update

Ah man, where do I begin?

It feels like forever since I last blogged.

What have I been up to?

Just busy, with work, my son, and spending a bunch of time with my boyfriend.

Work is, well work.

I’m so unhappy at work.

It’s just a bunch of bullshit and I can’t stand the place.

Other than seeing my man there.

Which we’ll see each other maybe once or twice while at work.

My son, well he’s just getting bigger and bigger.

Very rebellious.

Talking a bunch.

It’s super tiring though.

I started today trying to potty train him again.

The first time I tried I honestly didn’t think he was ready.

It’s no bueno.

He hates it. Haha

But, other than the potty training I’ve just been spending all my time with him.

Giving him all my love and just trying to be the best mom I can be.

It’s hard to do everything with a job that doesn’t pay shit and paying soooooo many bills.

It’s a struggle, but I’m making it through and keeping my son happy.

The boyfriend?

Well, every other week when I don’t have Vincent, I’m spending my time with him and also one day out of that week I see his son.

We bullshit, drink, hangout, and just spend literally every waking moment with each other.

It’s pretty amazing.

Well, that’s an update as if what I’ve been up too. We may be possibly going to Oktoberfest on Saturday so if we do, I’ll be sure to take pictures and videos and post a blog of that.

Thanks for reading. ❤️

Fairtime/familytime

Good morning! I know, it’s been a few days…but here’s some pictures and videos from Friday night at the Semo fair. Enjoy! ❤️

I also think this is the very first time that I am actually showing Vinnies face in my blogs. I’m very particular, and don’t post a lot of pictures of him on social media. So enjoy seeing his face for the first time! 🙂

It’s not butterflies

Something, that isn’t butterflies for once?

Have you ever just felt something?

But, what about a whole entirely new feeling?

Something that you know that you have never, ever felt in your life?

It’s something that feels right,

Like, it was meant to be.

Almost like you have found your other half.

Is that crazy sounding?

You’re heart beats real fast,

Giddy and nervous the moment you get even just a minute alone,

Because well, we’re at work, and it’s not allowed.

But,

All we need is that minute.

That minute to get that quick hug.

That minute to get a quick kiss.

And than, we part.

We go along with our day,

We message each other throughout the day while working,

Even though he’s right around the corner from my desk, working back in the warehouse part.

He’ll sneak past me, and we’ll both glance right quick before we go back to working.

The end of his shift, I’ll be on my last break, we talk, and we hug, we kiss, and off he goes.

I work a couple more hours, and when I’m off, I automatically message him. Even though I’ve been messaging him the entire time.

For the first time this week, we were able to hang out, outside of work.

So many feelings,

It’s fucking perfect.

We hung out a second time this week.

Feelings going out of control to where you know you’re going to slip up and say those words.

Those words that honestly scare you, but you feel it.

There’s no fucking doubt about it,

This is how I feel.

He grabs my face and says, “I’m so fucking in love with you.”

I am too,

I love you.

Thanks for reading.❤️