Job update

Good evening! So, I actually ended up recording myself a bit talking. Which, I did for the morning and kind of forgot to do the rest of the day…hah. So enjoy me explaining about going for my screening for a new job and some music at the end.

Do you ever..

Wake up in the morning and just lay there looking up at the ceiling?

You just keep staring and thinking.

Thinking about your life,

Wondering what things would be like if you did something different?

Do you procrastinate so you don’t have to get up and out of bed to start your day?

You just keep laying there looking around.

You repeatedly ask yourself what’re you doing with your life?

I want more in life than just this.

Waking up, going to the same lame job I always do.

There’s only one thing that makes me happy to even go to work. The only reason I enjoy it.

I feel like I’m wasting away.

Looking up at the ceiling thinking, “Damn, I need to make some coffee.”

Thanks for reading.❤️

Let’s try to write a happy blog…

Good evening! Hello, to all my lovely readers. So I decided to ask a friend what I should write about? To basically give me an idea on what I should write. Well, he told me instead of writing a depressing one, what about a happy one? Well…here I am..ready to write a happy blog. Let’s begin shall we?

Oh jeez, what is something that has made me happy lately? Well, Vincent’s dad bought a house in Jackson. That’s a plus. I really want Vincent to go to school in Jackson and finally!…he’ll be going there. I am super stoked!

Hrm…what else has made me happy? My son for sure. He always makes me happy. Seeing him makes me happy. Spending all my time with him makes me happy. I wish I saw him every week. Of course though, his dad and I do 50/50. So every other week for us it is. Seeing him grow makes me happy as well. He’s so smart for his age, and he’s starting to become independent…come on child you’re only two calm down!

Wine….wine makes me happy.

Honestly, lately, I’ve been pretty annoyed by friends and family. I don’t know what it is. It’s like, leave me the fuck alone. I want to be lonely and drink my wine. Watch my anime as well in peace. There’s only been ONE person that I have honestly loved talking too..maybe too much. (Vinnie does not count, I’m never annoyed by him, unless he’s being a butthead). So, uh yeah, it’s strange, but, pretty awesome…

That’s about all I got for right now, enjoy this short read guys!

Thanks for reading. ❤️

Enjoy this video of us at the farmers market. 😊

Drunken thoughts on being alone

Holy shit….

I’m single,

Finally, by myself once again

Honestly, it’s amazing!

I found myself unhappy during this relationship..

Why?

I was no where near ready for one.

I honestly let the things he said crawl into my head and convince me that I could try and see how things would go.

I just wanted to be alone.

Be alone, focus on me, my son, our life

I enjoy being alone,

I don’t have someone up my ass 24/7

Telling me what I can and can’t do.

I feel free.

Honestly, my relationship before that,

Just really fucked with my head,

The fear of someone appearing into my life and my sons life,

And out of nowhere just fades away…scares me..

It’s better this way, to wait, to focus on myself and my son,

I can do better,

I can find better,

Someone who will want to be with me and my son,

Love both of us,

As of right now though?

It’s me and my son against the world.

Thanks for reading. ❤️

Decisions..

Good evening! Ugh, I know, I know, it’s been a minute. I’ve just had a lot of shit going on and just honestly didn’t have the time or space to actually write a blog. Well here I am, sick and decided to write a blog. My dad is distracting a Vinnie for me for a little bit.

So what decisions did I have to make? Well I ended that relationship, moved out ASAP, and moved back in with my dad. Why did I decided to breakup with what’s his face? Well because, I’m just not ready. I’m not ready to commit to someone, I knew I wasn’t. I still tried though because he begged me to try and that trying was better than not trying at all.

I honestly should’ve just stayed on my own from the get go, because I was more than sure that I would end it. We’re still friends, but he had pissed me off to the point of, I’m not sure if I should be his friend. It is what it is though.

I moved out right away because well he started an argument and it just full blown pissed me off and I was like, “I’m done with this bull shit.” I texted my dads landlord and we arranged me to move back in. So right away after one day, I was out, I still have to get some stuff, but it’s not much.

So, currently, I am back with my dad, and saving up money for 8 months and then I’ll have to find my own place. What sucks though is that my paycheck with as many bills as I have will be hard to save up. I already struggle enough. I know I can do it though. It’ll be tough, but I gotta get it together for me and my son.

What do I plan to do once I’m moved out in my own place? Stay single as fuck, focus on myself, focus on my child, and get some stuff done in the making.

Thanks for reading. ❤️

30 random things about Vincent:

  1. Likes bouncy balls, sports balls, just loves balls, seriously he has like over 20!
  2. The color blue seems to be his favorite.
  3. Likes to eat ketchup.
  4. Anything that mommy has on her plate, he likes to steal and eat.
  5. Loves animals.
  6. Slowly, but surely showing interest in skateboarding.
  7. So far hes a lefty. (I was suppose to be left handed, but my mom forced me to be right handed.)
  8. One of his favorite movies would have to be Despicable Me 3
  9. Can be shy with people. Needs time to get use to someone new.
  10. Can help make chili.
  11. Puts his dishes in the sink.
  12. Throws away his trash.
  13. Very helpful if you ask him to do something for you.
  14. Kept playing with Travis’s slide on sandals, so I bought him some, and he is obsessed!
  15. Likes to cuddle.
  16. Can show you and grab the snack that he wants from the pantry
  17. Hates getting into the bath.
  18. Loves bath time once in the bath, screams when it’s time to get out.
  19. Dare Devil for sure.
  20. Tests mommy on certain things.
  21. Super goofy.
  22. Big brown eyes.
  23. Had dark brown, wavy hair when born like mommy, now has daddy’s hair.
  24. Has the smallest bit of Puerto Rican and Cuban.
  25. Can be picky with certain foods.
  26. He definitely will share with you, like snacks, wet snacks…gross. lol
  27. Likes to take off diaper and pull his shirt up to where it looks like a crop top.
  28. Acts like he can’t do something just so mommy will help him out.
  29. Gives out random hugs when you least expect it.
  30. Loves to play outside.